Army of One

Three things.  It was three things that happened in the last remnants of what remained of my marriage that I couldn't forgive you for.  I spent thirty plus years forgiving everything you ever did. Those last three things ended our marriage. Attacking our daughter, attacking my brother, and  your explosive behavior at work that landed … Continue reading Army of One

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Firing Back

I bought a gun. It is a Springfield  XD semi-automatic, 9mm with a four inch barrel.  As I signed and dated the paperwork, I realized something ironic.  It would have been my 33rd anniversary.  Life is full of bizarre coincidence.  Feeling the weight of my new weapon in my hand  gave me confidence. I scored … Continue reading Firing Back

Mania

Unless you have been in the presence of someone with mania, you really can't understand the intensity of it. My former husband had bouts of mania often during our entire marriage. Of course, I didn't understand what it was at the time.  I guess I just accepted it as maybe not completely normal, but just … Continue reading Mania

Games

Everything I did, he criticized. Everything I was, he criticized. Every hope I had for myself, he criticized. I enjoyed a lot of different games before him. It was fun to hit a tennis ball back and forth. He cured me of that by hitting me hard with a tennis ball and throwing his racquet … Continue reading Games

Robot

Every single thought in your head goes through a process before you have a visible reaction or speak a single word.  It doesn't matter how harmless or mundane the thought is.  You are on autopilot thinking and rethinking every possible reaction he could possibly have.  So your face is simply a blank mask.  Your eyes … Continue reading Robot