“I don’t matter. I never did and never will in his world full of him.”

I  am the mother of two college aged girls and  was married for  thirty two years to their father, a mentally ill man.   We all came through the “mind field” together. The main question I am asked by everyone is “why didn’t I leave if it was that bad?”  That’s not an easy question to answer. The reasons probably differ for everyone.   I am sharing my experiences.  It doesn’t mean that this is the way it is for everyone, but maybe someone can gain insight or support in knowing they aren’t alone.  Perhaps someone who is mentally ill can gain understanding about how their behavior and illness affects their loved ones.